A year and a half ago I thought running away is the option to get over with the way I feel.

I took the promotion and moved out of my home city. New place, new people, new work life should have got me the peace I was looking for. It didn’t help me, instead it made me worse.

Loneliness was never a problem for me but living alone in the new city made me realize what loneliness was like.

I decided to run away again from the new city back home. I came back home feeling much worse than before. It made me realize there are issues within me that needs help. Everything around me was suddenly turning into gray. There was this feeling of hopelessness within me which I never experienced before.

I tried working on myself. I had to start somewhere but where. I gave reading a try given the fact that I used to love to read. I gave blogging a try. I gave cooking a try. I started chatting with people. I started doing household chores. Unless I realized I’m distracting myself from the problems. I’m not really solving the problem.

I wanted to run away but running away from what? I realized I wanted to run away from myself which is impossible.

Love thyself.

Written by Chaotic Soul

Ashmita Chatterjee is a Creative Writer/Blogger from Mumbai. She is an Enthusiast, Straight Forward girl who has found joy in Writing Blogs. Ashmita is a Loud Creator of Amazing Blogs, Short Stories and Erotica at Chaoticsoulzzz! She started her blog in 2011. When Ashmita is not being very busy, she can be found Writing, Reading, Eating, or Recklessly Travelling with her loved ones. She is known by the name of @chaoticsoulzzz on her Twitter and Instagram.

1 comment

Join The Conversation Buddy!

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.

%d bloggers like this: