Depression is Real

Last few weeks, rather months have been really tough for the citizens of the globe. Pandemic, cyclone, unemployment etc. has taken a toll on a lot of lives. I sympathize with everyone who are suffering and kudos to all those who are striving hard to overcome this.

One of the news on the suicide investigation of Sushant Singh Rajput has really affected me. Everyday there’s a new post or YouTube video on how was this a murder and not a suicide.

I am neither an expert on the topic nor interested in knowing who is to be blamed for it. I sympathize with the family and friends for their loss. Mostly, I sympathize with Sushant Singh Rajput who had to go through loneliness to the level that he couldn’t discuss what’s going on in his mind with his family. I’m sure ‘that place’ in his mind was a chaotic one.

If there’s a foul play, the culprit will be punished. However, what kills me to read everyday is when people say, ‘He drank juice in the morning. Who can die by suicide after having fruit juice? ’ There are some who say, ‘He was playing COD before he died, it is not possible to take the step of suicide while playing the game.’ There are also a few who say, ‘He had everything in life. Such people cannot be depressed.’

These statements triggers me in a negative way. A way wherein I want to yell and say, these things doesn’t mean the person wasn’t depressed. In order to prove there was foul play in this case, YouTubers and bloggers are forgetting a lot of people reading or listening to their posts are living with depression or some sort of mental illness and every time they say he cannot be depressed because he was playing, drinking, or was rich triggers them too.

I was diagnosed with depression and I’m still living with it. I know the space in my head is very chaotic. One minute I am laughing the other minute I am staring at the wall. I spend my days watching stand up comedy, Netflix etc. and my nights are spent crying on my pillow. I’m blessed with a well to do family and I have friends who love me a lot. I am still depressed and these posts make me question myself.

I request all the YouTubers and Bloggers who are coming up with theories on this case, please understand mental illness before commenting on it.

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