not a D-A-N-C-I-N-G Q-U-E-E-N!!!

People feel relaxed after dancing… some people start moving their feet as the music goes on… some people don’t care where they are and start dancing on music…

Well I started learning Bharat Natyam when I was 10 or 11 but I had my own comfort zone that I used to follow… I used to go to the dance class wearing a t-shirt and a short… I felt comfortable in it… I know it’s a big NO- NO!!! But all that matters to me is my Comfort!!!

I joined Bharat Natyam class because my friends from school and my neighbor’s daughter were learning it… I used to go there wearing my shorts, my dance Didi used to bawl at me on a regular basis… but I really didn’t bother to change my attitude…

She asked me to wear a salwar kameez and that was the last thing I would wear… even now I hate wearing it but have to at times….but as I child I didn’t own a salwar kameez…. So I continued wearing my shorts and started learning my dance lessons… I performed the first dance show after clearing my oral tests and written exams on dance…

The show was a big HIT… the week after the show I started going to my dance class again in the same avatar… this time my dance teacher “DIDI” as we addressed her hit me with a cane on my legs because my sitting wasn’t proper… “sitting” is the normal Bharat Natyam posture… my sitting wasn’t proper because of the shorts I was wearing… she started yelling at me and scolded me left and right…

After my regular dance lessons that day, I came home and started crying in front of my dad and told him the entire thing… that was the last day of mine at the dance class… that was the end of the ‘so not dancing queen’ in me…

In my life, apart from the dance performance which was very good for everyone, but pathetic for me, was the last performance and last dance I had ever done… dancing is what increases my stress and is not a stress reliever for me at all…

“I CANT DANCE AT ALL!!!” Is my message to the people who know me and asks me to dance… guys I cannot dance… when people say that dancing is not difficult it is just moving a bit… I feel the anger in me rising to the top and just feel like yelling and saying….. GUYS I CANT EVEN MOVE MY BODY IN RHYTHM… I am not even the worst dancer… a worst dancer is better than me…

I have been watching many dance shows but all I like about dancing is ‘watching it’… I can be a loyal audience when it comes to dancing but being the performer is IMPOSSIBLE…. I don’t criticize anyone’s dance moves as I am not a dancer but yess would just say whether I enjoyed it or no!!!

I don’t understand anything about DANCE… I can’t even move my hands in rhythm on the tune… but yess when there is a soft music my hands start moving but to write something… Writing is my genre… I love doing it!!! That is a stress reliever for me…

Usually Bengalis are known for their dancing ability and singing talent… and these two things is the last thing I would do… though I am a bathroom singer… but my singing talent is just limited to the bathroom… I love listening to music and can easily guess which singer has sung the song… I am like a big music fan but just love listening to it…

Why don’t people realize that Bengalis are also good in literature as well…? I mean literature started from Bengalis…

I realized that writing is my passion lately and till that date I always used to wonder, “Am I a total L-O-S-E-R???” as I didn’t knew anything, I couldn’t dance, couldn’t sing… but when I realized that I can WRITE what I feel in an amazing way, I realized that every person has a quality in themselves…

A friend of mine can dance on any music… she can dance anywhere… which is a bit weird for me but then I think when I can write anything anywhere why cant she dance anywhere… well every person has their own quality….

I respect all you people there…. And this blog is especially for all the people out there who are bad in fact very bad in dancing and can’t dance at all like me!!!… Well it’s nothing bad if you can’t dance, people will still love you for who you are…

There are people who dances well and think that everyone can dance or at least move on the rhythm, so for those people… my message is “guys I know you’ll are extra ordinary dancers and can dance on any given music but everyone cannot be like YOU…” I really hate when some people think that the people who cannot dance are the N-E-R-D-S… well I have faced this comment a lot…

Many people used to find it weird as I never danced and chose to write than to dance… Well guys like me, trust me you’ll are not nerds… show the world that even you’ve some talent… I am so sure that every person has some talent… some can dance well, some can sing, some can act well, some click good pictures, some can paint, some can write good poems while some can write good paragraphs…. There are so many hobbies and passion of different people… not necessary that if one is good in dancing even the other has to be good in it…

I am not ashamed when I say that I can’t dance and I don’t want to learn dancing… it doesn’t fascinate me… I don’t feel like moving when the music is on….

Maybe I am too lazy to do that or maybe that is just not me!!!

Well all the pathetic dancers like me, don’t worry I am in the league and am supporting you all and respect all of you…

Respect yourself and love yourself… if you do so then no one in the world will ever try to put you down… when you don’t know how to dance just say it!!! And be the way you are!!!

ciao!!! keep Blogging!!! keep reading!!!